With several local TV stations fighting to outdo each other to remain the most preferred TV station for the majority, we have seen several soap operas being aired on almost every station, majority being Philippines and Mexican movies. But there is one that I religiously follow and which got me thinking today, it`s called “SOY TU DUENA” whose main protagonist is a once charming, caring and loving woman called Valentine Villalba but whom pain and betrayal has turned into an insensitive, rude and arrogant person whom the whole village now refers to as a “viper” or “a poisonous snake”, frankly she is not proud of the person she has become, this you can notice from the small humane acts that she tries to do albeit secretively.
Several incidences got me thinking today and prompted me to ask myself this question: “Am I proud of whom I have become?”
I received a rather uncomfortable e-mail attachment from one of my pals today; the subject of the mail was “are you ready to meet your maker?”- I don’t need to beat around the bush with this; my answer is a big “NO”, but then why??
If you were to ask me that question several years ago when I was in high school, my answer would have been a lot different, it would have been an emphatic “YES”, but not anymore, so what is the reason behind this major flip flop? Just like Chinua Achebe, I asked myself this question? “When and where did the rain start beating me”?
Incidentally I met my former high school principle, and for some weird reasons I felt guilty, guilty because somehow I know I have changed, I have changed from the sweet girl she helped nurture to someone who is slowly turning into “Valentine Villalba” and even if she dint notice it, I know because conscience is what hurts when everything else feels so good, and as Albert Camus puts it; “guilty conscience needs to confess. A work of art is a confession” and I bet that`s the road I should take ASAP- CONFESS.
And as Socrates aptly puts it “The unexamined life is not worth living”, let’s take an hour off our busy schedule and ask ourselves these questions:
- Are you proud of the person you have become (Holistically)?
- If not, where did the rain start beating you?
- And what can you do to change it?
Happy Easter!
