Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Love, let's have a heart to heart this Boxing Day

It’s Boxing Day again, I am told this is the day to open the boxes of gifts received on Christmas day, but today my love I want to open my heart to you, this heart which is full of so much love to give if only you knew how to trigger it.

It’s been five wonderful years together , with 2 beautiful gals- a constant reminder of God’s grace, mercy and love, we have had our dark and bright moments, we have had days and weeks when we totally want out and those moments when seeing each other is the only remedy. With you I have learnt the power of perseverance and patience, your love has seen me surmount major challenges that I never thought I would manage.

These girls that we have had together, these girls have been my savior, they were sent to rescue me- rescue me from myself. You see my dear love, I know those moments when I become completely unbecoming, stubborn and completely irrational and I thank you for sticking by me during those moments but sometimes I also feel if only you paid just slight attention to the underlying causes to these irrational behavior, then maybe you would know how to handle me better and this empire of ours would be nothing but the envy of many.
This my dear beloved, valued and treasured love is how I would appreciate being loved:

They say and I am inclined to believe that unlike men who needs to feel admired but not as much as they need to feel loved, this species of ours we are slightly different, as much as we need to feel loved, admiration takes precedence this I feel you rarely do or show it, compliments here and there will go a long way in achieving this.

To us words have power, real power- power to make or break and I have a feeling you are being too economical with words, I want to fall deeper and deeper in love with you, once in a while tell me how you feel and most importantly tell me how I make you feel and mean it, this alone is enough to reenergize me to work harder in this empire of ours. You remember that day I made you mokimo and you said I make you happy, that you loved my cooking, every time I remember that day, all I want to do is perfect my mokimo making skills so that I keep you happy but you stopped and so I no longer know how exactly you feel about me, I want to know both the days that I make you feel real bad instead of bottling them up since this will equally help me make adjustments.

I know your work schedule is crazy but once in a while create time for us, just me and you, let’s do some outdoor activity say chase grasshoppers, marvel at the rainbow, watch wild animals just something out of routine, this will refuel both of us and make us bond much better and allow us to know each other deeply.

Surprises works magic, try it, some unexpected naughty text, a thoughtful gift , this makes me feel that besides your schedule I was actually crossing your mind, makes me feel more wanted, more valued and more appreciated. You remember that petal flower that you plucked for me on your way from work and that day in the kitchen when you blindfolded my eyes, removed PK from your pocket and gave it to me? That day I was on top of the world, that feeling was heavenly and I would want to feel that way more often.
Could it be that my after birth body makes me attractive no more that you find it somewhat embarrassing to walk with me and introduce me to your friends and colleagues? When Farooq had his first baby, I remember you tagging me alone with you to go and see the baby together but above all I remember how you introduced me to him, I remember the look in your eyes, you said I was the bearer of your lost rib, that a rare gem I was, I also remember you tagging me along to go and watch Ruben and Ezekiel play scrabble but you no longer take me to meet your friends, you no longer introduce me people, you let them find out for themselves, what changed dear?

There is nothing I would want to do more than to make you happy, you do know how passionate I can get, let me love you but help me do it better because when I am the only one who calls you the lovey dovey names, when am the only one saying how I feel then it makes me think that this empire of ours is one sided.
I understand the sacrifices you’ve made so far, the gradual changes that were initially out of your character, and above all feel very valued and appreciated.

Happy festive season dear!


1 comment:

  1. This is a beautiful piece, as if you are talking to someone I know...very lovely...

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